Ziggy ♥X♥♥X♥ Newby

Thank you to Mary Wheeler for all the
beautiful pictures xxx

My Precious and much loved Son

Ziggy Newby Aged 21 Occupation baker lived in Leeds
Died of Ewings Sarcoma (Cancer) 16th August 1983-- 21st April 2005



Dearly loved and Missed xxx
Brother to Zowie ~
Brother-in-law to Michael ~
Uncle to Courtney and Mason ~




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Ziggy was the best son a mother could ask for. He was loved by everyone who met him. He was just
starting to make a good life for himself when tragedy struck he was diagnosed with cancer. He did
not let this get him down though he carried on as normal always had a big smile on his face. And he
always believed he would beat it. 2 months before he died he passed his driving test thats the type
of gut and determination he had. He managed to drive about in his own car for a few weeks before his
condition worsened and he loved it. Throughout his illness his only thought was for other people he
would tell the nurses he didnt need them because he thought other people needed them more.
Ziggy slipped peacefully away, surrounded by his loving family. He was at home which is where he
wanted to be. I miss my beautiful son so much and think about him constantly. I can only think that
he has gone to a better place and we will be together again someday.

Ziggy was so brave I am so proud of him. He faced everything with courage he was and still is my
little hero.

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And when the last great scorer comes and writes against your name, He will ask not if you won or
lost but how you played the game.


Thank you to everyone who adds a tribute or lights a candle. Remember Ziggy as the happy person
that he was. Andreaxxx


Ziggys journey
In may 2003 Ziggy was complaining of pain and swelling below his knee. We went to our GP who looked
at it and said it was a pulled muscle she gave him some pain killers and said she would refer him to
hospital to see a specialist we never recieved an appointment but because she had said it was a
pulled muscle we were not alarmed. By september though the pain had got worse and so had the
swelling. we went back to the GP again this time she gave Ziggy nothing but said she would chase up
the referal. By mid october we still didnt hear anything so i took my son to A&E. I could tell
straight away that they were concerned they put Ziggy on a ward and did loads of tests. We were then
told that it was cancer by this time it had spread to Ziggys lungs, heart, kidneys, bone marrow and
hip. We were then sent to birmingham to have a biopsy to find out what type of cancer by this time
it was mid november the result was Ewings sarcoma. Ziggy started his treatment on 5th december 7
months after he had first visited his GP. I later found out that the hospital had never recieved a
referal from the GP and no record of any contact from the GP. I feel that this delay robbed me of my
son. Ziggy Had chemotherapy until may 2004. Scans showed everywhere was clear so Ziggy was then to
have a bone marrow transplant and more intense chemotherapy he was also given the option of having
his leg amputated. Sadly none of this was to be. Further scans revealed the tumours had returned and
the doctors decided that amputation was no longer an option. Ziggy then developed a blood clot in
his leg so was also recieving treatment for that. Ziggy then started having radiotherapy on various
places by this time he had developed a tumour on his spine this is when i finally realized that
Ziggy was not going to get better. This was comfirmed by Ziggys consultant who told me Ziggy only
had a few short months left, even though i guessed i was devastated.I drove around for a while
before going home to compose myself. When i got in Ziggy asked what the consultant had said, with a
big smile on my face i told my lovely son that every thing was fine and i had wasted most of my time
sat in the waiting room.(how could i tell my son at 21 that he was dying) Ziggy continued to have
radiotherapy on his spine and was due to have more on his leg but he was getting very weak the
journey to the hospital was too much for him as was all the waiting about for transport. I was told
Ziggy needed a blood transfussion before he could have any further treatment this was when i decided
enough was enough i was clutching at straws . Ziggy only had a few weeks left did i want him to
spend days at a time in hospital having treatment for nothing or stay at home where he was happy. I
decided to stop treatment. I had not given up on my son I could not take a chance that he would go
into hospital and not come out. Ziggy hated hospitals. I was told that if i stopped treatment Ziggy
would slip peacefully away if i continued Ziggy was at risk of his spinal cord snapping and all
sorts of other horrible things happening so i know i made the right choice. I must add Ziggy was 21
so therefore normally it would have been up to him what he did but he was incapable of understanding
what was happening. I thank god for that i never wanted my son to be told he was dying. I always
wanted to protect him and i did to the end. 20th April 2005 Ziggy wanted to go out somewhere he
decided on meadowhall at sheffield. Graham Ziggy and myself set off I knew Ziggy wasnt well enough
to go but i also knew it would be the last time we would go anywhere together again. We went round
the shops and into the cafe. Ziggy had a coffee and a slush puppy. I could see Ziggy slipping away
before my eyes so i said we had better set off back. The journey home was horrendous i thought Ziggy
was not going to make it home but i told Graham to take no notice of what was happening and just
carry on driving. I told my son a million times how much i loved him. He also told me a million
times how much he loved me. I think Ziggy knew he was dying. He asked me if i was scared i said no
love are you ,he said no and smiled at me. I will never forget that journey home as long as i live.
21st April 2005 My son Ziggy slipped peacefully away.

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Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ZIGGY Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ

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┊　┊　┊　 ♥ Those we love don't go away
┊　┊　♥ They walk beside us every day,
┊　 ♥ Unseen, unheard, but always near,
♥ Still loved, still missed and very dear.

Forever in my heart Zig's
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Love Mam xxx



TO ALL WHO LOVE AND MISS ZIGGY
I am home in Heaven, dear ones; Oh so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.
All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed;
I am now at peace forever,
Safely home in Heaven at last.
Did you wonder I so calmly
Trod the valley of the shade?
Oh! but Jesus love illumined
Every dark and fearful glade.
And He came Himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus arm to lean on
Could I have one doubt or dread?
Then you must not grieve so sorely
For I love you dearly still:
Try to look beyond earths shadows,
Pray to trust our Fathers Will.
There is work still waiting for you,
So you must not idly stand;
Do it now, while life remaineth---
You shall rest in Jesus land.
When that work is all completed,
He will gently call you Home;
Oh, the rapture of that meeting,
Oh, the joy to see you come!


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I always had one dearest wish,
a son to be born was top of my list.
that day it came and my heart it did flow,
with joy and love that only mothers would know.
I'd sit and I'd sing and I'd hold you so tight,
wrapped in my arms by day, and by night.
my feelings growing forever stronger,
as nightimes on earth, get longer and longer.
we played, we laughed, we joked together,
hoping those times would last forever.
I sat so proud as I watched you grow,
into that handsome young man i'll always know.
but now that you've gone to your heavenly place,
my memories I have of my loving son's face.
I know you would tell me ''mam please do not cry''
but my boy he is waiting, in the sky.
I know we will be together again soon,
so move over angels, make my mam some room.
so together we will sit and watch the world go by
in my loving son's arms in our place in the sky.


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You ask me how Im feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go

How can I tell you,
what its been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you dont see

You ask me how Im holding up,
but do you really care?
The second I try to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.

Because I am so lonely,
you see, no one comes around,
I will take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.

Everyone avoids me now,
Because they dont know what to say
They tell me I will be there for you,
then turn and walk away.

Call me if you need me,
thats what everybody said,
But how can I call you and scream
into the phone,
My God, my child is dead?

No one will let me
say the words I need to say
Why does a mothers grief
scare everyone away?

I am tired of pretending
as my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
but my soul finds no rest.

How can I tell you things
that are too sad to be told,
of the helplessness of holding a child
who in your arms grows cold?

Maybe you can tell me,
How should one behave,
whos had to follow their child’s casket,
watched it perched above a grave?

You cannot imagine
what it was like for me that day
to place a final kiss upon that box,
and have to turn and walk away.

If you really love me,
and I believe you do,
if you really want to help me,
here is what I need from you.

Sit down beside me,
reach out and take my hand,
Say My friend, Ive come to listen,
I want to understand.

Just hold my hand and listen
thats all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
its alright if you do to.

I swear that I will remember
till the day Im very old,
the friend who sat and held my hand
and let me bare my soul

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♥ღ♥ Ziggy Gods loving arms enfolded you,
with tender loving care,
He saw that you were suffering
as you laid in silence there,
He said the time has come
for you to take a rest,
He held you in his arms and said,
I ONLY TAKE THE BEST ♥ღ♥
~ With love to my beautiful Son Ziggy ~

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~x~ ZIGGY ~x~
In dreams I often see you,
The way you used to be,
Full of plans and hopes and dreams,
That were never meant to be.
Wherever you are now son,
Be it far away from home,
Part of me went with you,
So you know you're never alone.
love you millions mam xxx

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God Was Your Closest Friend

I knew you were hurting although you wouldn't cry,
And could see you were suffering, see the pain in your eye.
I wanted to comfort you, to hold you, be with you that day,
You looked so helpless and frail while in bed you did lay.
I watched as you shivered from a new pain,
And wondered how I might have handled the same.
I wanted to scream, to shout, and to yell,
You said you were fine although your skin was so pale.
I knew in my heart your time was near end,
And wished I could take you, your body to mend.
I knew that soon God would be your closest friend,
You told me many times that's how it would end.
I stood there watching as each breath came slow,
And fought to find courage, my emotions were low.
I promised you when the time came that I'd not cry,
You never saw my eyes wet, always they were dry.
I held your hand as I silently said goodbye,
And knew in my heart that soon you would die.
I stroked your forehead and said how I loved you,
You nodded and smiled and I knew that you knew.
I no longer care, my tears I can't hide,
And as I stood there waiting for death by your side.
I knew then that God was your closest friend,
You had told me many times that's how it would end.

My Son and my friend i miss you so much ......love mam xxx

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WONDERFUL BROTHER OF MINE

What was his life but a vapor
A grain in the sands of time
A drop of dew in the morning
And a ray of lost sunshine
His love was deep as the ocean
It reached from the earth to the sky
He looked for the wings of an angel
And the land of 'Sweet Bye and Bye'
Sometimes his pain was a puzzle
Sometimes his joy a rhyme
But his heart reached out and touched me
That wonderful brother of mine
I know that the cross was heavy
And the pain was hard to bear
But I always watched from the shadows
And you knew that I was there
Life is never a highway
But a mountainous road to climb
I'm glad I had you beside me
Oh. wonderful brother of mine
You were here for only a moment
Now you have slipped away
The stage of life's been traded
For one of earth and clay
I think of the days of childhood
When we played on meadow and Lea
All that is left is an echo
Your voice is calling to me
How many drops of water
Has gone down the river of time
But none will be more precious
Than ours- Oh, brother of mine
The twilight of life came creeping
Across the portals of time
And when the veil was lifted
Gone--that brother of mine
Gone like the mist of the morning
Or flowers at ending of day
The song of the bird has ended
And the music has faded away
If God would grant me the power
To turn back the pages of time
I'd turn them back one by one
'Til I found that brother of mine
Life's little day has ended
Your race on earth is run
So fold your hands my brother
And wait for the morning sun
Farewell, oh wonderful brother of mine
And may these words be read
By those who see the Epitaph
In stone above thy head
Epitaph transition
When life and death at twilight meet
All my days and years are spent
I shall pause beneath the sod
To resurrect -- And ornament

With love from Zowie xxxx


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MY BEAUTIFUL SON I MISS YOU SO MUCH

Once I had something special
that money could not buy
I had a special son
but I had to say goodbye
If I was asked one question
why I thought the world of you
I could give a million answers
And each one would be true

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The heartache and the sadness
may not always show
People say it lessens
but little do they know
Meet me in my dreams son
and talk to me once more

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Ease the everlasting pain
that makes my heart so sore
The road without you is so long
a tear for every mile
But I know one day
when I reach the end
You will be waiting with a smile

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Forever in my heart Zig's
till we meet again xxx